This Sickness

A poem by Raea Nyxx

 

When you look in my direction

I undergo a mental dissection

This feeling is alien

To my winter mind.

 

Dead memories roam free

I share these scars for all to see

Yet you don’t run and hide,

Even though I’m damaged in plain sight.

 

This feeling I can’t stand

Good yet horrific.

Losing my mind?

Is it already lost?

Like a car going for the guardrails

I need to guard my bleak heart

I don’t comprehend this foreign language

So many seem to speak it,

I can’t even breathe.

 

In this light sweetness

It shatters my shadow visions

I call my reality,

Rips apart my home

These shadow lands.

 

I must shake this feeling

No matter what it takes

Take your heart and devour it.

So I can be at peace again

 

Get close

Love overdose,

Plunge a rusty dagger

Straight into your head.

Sorry,

But I can’t take these emotions

Not sorry.

You fell for a hollow.

Then abused it.

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